Satisfaction

by Sabine vom Hoff

What is important about Neptune?

Not the doing of the right thing, 
not the doing of the wrong thing…

The connection with self is important, self is not a thing: self is the essence.

When I am awake, whether I sleep or not, I am connected with my essence. Simply the connection with self is the expression of trust… because there is no ‘no trust’ of self.

Trust is necessary when I am disconnected, then I am looking for some ‘thing’ I can project my trust upon; but there is ‘no thing’ [outside of self] so the expression of trust projected upon a thing is never calming, nor satisfactory.

The German word for satisfaction is Befriedigung… where there is the word ‘Friede’ — peace.

So satisfaction is the peace within me and the peace within me is, when I am aware of my essence,  the connection with myself.

This state of beingness exists only in the now — it includes the past and the future, but it is not the past nor is it the future.

Being in the now and connected with self, I am aware of the beliefs, the truths, the blueprint: they are like walls — I respond to them or not, that is my choice. I can also merely be aware of them and let them be; when I don’t respond, they then pass like a tone of a song.  
Or I can see them as precious stones, but when I hold tight to them, I express responsibility — I pretend to be the owner. When I am the owner, my concentration is upon them to the exclusion of all else — that requires effort and the effort is tension. When I merely perceive them, touch, smell, hear, see or taste them — they are a piece of music, which I enjoy. Whatever I choose is not important — as long as I sense the connection with my self.

When I am connected with my self, I am aware of the impulses: they need not be translated into thought (although they may, as the inner voice) ; by following the impulses in the moment all desires are met, perfectly.

That is the real satisfaction.

Sabine vom Hoff, October 2009