How I Choose
What I’m Going To Experience

by Mark Felder

I’ve been creating a rather large set of weird and pleasantly happy creations for some months now. It’s where my passing casual thoughts manifest rather quickly. Events are occurring as I wish they would. For example: I decided I would not participate in the recession any more, and I’m having an absolutely fantastic business season.

Not too long ago I created a new event in my life where my company trucks engine just dies while I’m driving it. It happens intermittently, with no warning or pattern to it. I know this is a manifestation of my concern for getting a current job done on time, but I had a doubt, and the doubt has manifested in this annoying way.

One afternoon, after coming back from a job, the power in the house started doing the same thing. That was annoying too. Power on, then it goes off, then on again, then off, then on. It seems like the same problem manifests in various ways, but with the same effect.

That job I was doing was a last minute one, where a large landscaping company hired me to do quite a bit of work because they have a time crunch, and couldn’t get it done on time by themselves. So naturally I have to create truck troubles so I can add some of my own drama to this situation. My truck, by the way, has been the most trouble free vehicle I’ve ever owned.

I had one full day of work to go until I was finished, and could easily get it done on the upcoming Monday, two full days ahead of the deadline. But with my truck acting up like it was, I didn’t know if it would just die and not start again. Then I couldn’t finish the job on time which would have been a disaster for me, or it would not die, and all would be smooth and happy.

I couldn’t get the truck looked at by the dealer until that Wednesday, the deadline day. I guess it was because I needed to create some drama and stress. You see, my life truly is pretty much stress free, except for this new creation. My truck engine would just stop running while I was driving, and I decided I didn’t want to pay for it, but the truck is no longer under warranty. Still, I decided to create a probability where it didn’t cost me anything to get it fixed. Later, when I went to the dealer, it turned out that there was a recall for that very problem and Ford will foot the bill.

It was a Friday night and I was back home. I had to do something to ensure I would be able to finish the job on time. I decided that I would choose the probability where my truck would run just fine so I could finish the job on Monday. Monday arrived and when I drove to work on that job, the truck ran perfectly. No problems. The previous Thursday and Friday it had been dying five or six times within a 20 minute drive.

Its very stressful when the engine unexpectedly dies on me as I’m driving. I’m pulling a very heavy trailer with my equipment on it, and when the engine dies, I loose the power steering, power brakes, and of course drive power while on the highway in traffic.

So right after choosing the new stress-less probability of no truck problems, I felt myself actually sliding sideways out of that probability where the truck engine dies all the time and right into the one I chose. I could sense how this new probability was without any upcoming truck troubles. That Monday morning just before I left home, I looked forward in time and saw a very pleasant day ahead of me, and it turned out that way.

When I looked forward into that Monday, I saw me finishing the job without a single glitch. And heres the really cool part; just to my right, I could sense the other probability just hanging there in space. The one where my truck broke down and I couldn’t finish the job on time. It was almost physically tangible, so much so I could almost reach out and touch it.

The entire weekend through Wednesday morning when I had my appointment with the truck dealer for the repair, that probability sat there right in front of me and to my right. And the entire time my truck ran perfectly. When I parked it in the dealers lot I felt myself slide right back into the troubled truck probability. It was OK, because now it was to be repaired. When the mechanic went to get my truck it died on him as he was pulling it in the garage, he told me later.

The thing about that situation was that I knew I could slide right back into that other probability at any time if I wanted to. It was literally being held off to the side by my thoughts. It was like driving on a four lane highway, and I was in the left lane. Right next to me, in the right lane was that troubled truck probability. It was right there as big as life the whole time. A very minor change of the direction of my thoughts and I would be right back in it.

How I got to this point, where I can sense the energy and form of different probabilities, and often choose one over another has been though a series of meditations where I focus on the energy behind the probability itself. I focus on them until they feel as tangible as solid objects.

When the meditations end, I can sense a greater awareness of the tangibility that probabilities have, and then choose several probability’s for my experiencing. I can actually feel them slide into place right in front of me. They seem to be almost as solid as a physical object would be. They have a very pronounced presence.

These probabilities have the same set of qualities and energies that my current situation has. Not the circumstances part, as those are very different, but the ‘realness’ aspects of it. In other words, I can feel the probabilities wrapping themselves around me in a way that feels just as real and acceptable as my current situation is.

For instance I have my business in which I spend a great deal of time actively pursuing. The business itself isn’t physical, but it’s a set of energies and probabilities that allow situations to occur in a particular framework. The business has physical objects associated with it. Its not the objects that form the business, but the energy construct behind it. This energy construct causes people to seek me out from amongst all the other probable choices they have, (my competitors) and ask me to supply my services and then pay me. That’s the real business energy aspect I’m talking about.

The physical objects that my business has associated with it, the machines and materials are all secondary constructs, as other things could be used in their place. The energy construct behind the business is very tangible and I can feel it as can others which is why they call me. The business is a series of probabilities, not a physical object, yet it has the properties of a solid physical object. It those kinds of feelings and energies that form the probabilities that I have been focusing on.

Seth talks about this in various ways throughout his books, as do other spooks. I have always had a hard time putting that into practical use until I started this series of meditations focusing on just what those feelings and energies are that probabilities have. I’m getting closer to consciously locking in on the mind set that brings this about.

Sometimes I’m very clear, as I was in my truck experience, and then it’s so easy to do. Sometimes I can’t get the mind set needed and things don’t work out so well. Yet I can tell, its all in my thoughts and what I allow them to do. My thoughts come first, then the events follow.

Many of my instant manifestations are preceded with the thought: “It sure would be nice if…” and then I let it go. They are very casual passing thoughts. What I have become very much aware of is that during that thought process, I was locked directly on the energy and feeling behind those probabilities without always having to consciously make it a point to do so. In other words, the tangible part of it. The meditations are helping make this a natural subconscious act, which makes this seem effortless at times.

Within all these probabilities, they have the same tangible realness of having a hot cup of coffee in front of me. I also have some sugar and cream available right there as well. I can add those things or not as they are probabilities. Its my choice and all I have to do is choose it or not. I can see them in my minds eye, sense them, and if I want, I can experience them or not.