Careful What You Wish For

by Ayyon

Many years ago when my mind was young and powerful, I acquired a book entitled “Magic: An Occult Primer” by David Conway.

This was in the early 70s, before I “met” Seth, and it made a profound impression on me. I believed every word of it, including the part about “healing” and “afflicting”.

I was young then, fairly rebellious to authority, and believed fervently that if you were right, nothing else mattered. My work environment was an electronics factory which had been a cornfield 5 years earlier, bursting with enthusiasm and with everyone frantically doing everything in their power to make the place successful. We all shared in the joys of creation, and the management tolerated very unregimented behavior as long as it contributed to the overall success.

As it became evident to the older managers in the corporate organization that this upstart factory was “the jewel in the corporate crown”, they gradually came replacing the people who had created this “miracle”. Our personnel manager believed that you tested and screened for people who would happily work in the job for which they had been hired for their entire career. He carefully screened for the stupidest, most unimaginative, and most incapable people he could find for janitorial work.

The next personnel manager, newly arrived on the scene, chose “seniority” as this was easily ascertained, and put group leader jobs up “for bid”. The result was that those originally hand picked for stupidity and further tested by their willingness to stay in menial jobs now gradually came to be in charge!

Higher management was confused by our practice of working without breaks until the production machinery was running satisfactorily and then taking them. They much preferred having a bell ring and for everyone to stop working for a period, and for another bell to ring and for everyone to start in again. Bringing about this change to highly regimented behavior was the responsibility in my case, of a pretty good man who we will call “Joe”.

I didn’t really dislike “Joe”, but my life was much more pleasant when he was not around. He missed a lot of work because of a diabetes related sore toe.

I started concentrating on his sore toe whenever he was missing, visualizing him singing and dancing, and the circulation increasing to the toe. This was so successful that it seemed impossible not to attribute it to cause and effect. Strictly from a scientific test basis and with no malice intended, I started “causing” the toe to get sorer, and then “curing it”, with the test being whether he was at work or not. I began to accumulate results which to me could not be coincidental, and was about to discontinue the “afflicting” part, but always seemed to need to try it “one more time” just to be sure.

I was lying in bed one night, concentrating on his toe when I found myself tumbling head over heels through the air toward his house.

The “trip” took a measurable amount of time, and speed seemed faster than the speed of sound but not nearly at the speed of light. We lived probably 25 or so miles apart, and in a couple of seconds found myself in his breezeway where I had never been. My body seemed pretty normal, and I could see him but he could not see me. I seemed to be standing on the floor normally.

I was delighted, and not at all frightened. I asked myself if I could pass through the wall at will and instantly found myself doing exactly that. My next thought was “I wonder if I could set the place on fire” and saw myself engulfed in flames. I became very alarmed at what I had done and “awoke” screaming “Put it out! Put it out!” My heart was racing and I felt very guilty.

By the next night I had pretty much convinced myself that it was just a very real bad dream, and I was mildly surprised to notice “Joe” wasn’t at work the next day. It seems that there had been a fire of unexplained origin at his house the night before, and that he was cleaning up. The time matched the time “I was there”, and the part of the house where it occurred matched also.